There's a lot to be said for chasing what you want. For going out, and making the first move, putting yourself on display, and hoping someone reaches back. But that's not me. I'm not the chaser. I'm the one waiting to be found. I'm the one looking for something that isn't built on endless swiping and meaningless small talk, but rather something much deeper, something more real.
I'm looking for a connection that feels effortless — not in the sense that it takes no work, but in the sense that it just fits. Where effort is applied and returns are seen. A relationship where I don't have to force myself into a role I wasn't made for, where Im not required to lead or initiate, but where I can lean into something open, steady, safe, and reliable.
I want presence, not just passion. The kind that pulls you in without a word. The kind of strength that doesn't demand, but simply just is — and the kind that sees me for all I am. I'm not just seeking to connect, I want to belong to someone. To be held onto, and never let go.
I seek a deep and meaningful relationship, but what does that look like when the feelings that are supposed to drive connection don't come naturally? When even the idea of intimacy feels so conflicting? It's as if my heart longs for something my brain won't let me feel. Connection must be possible, but what will it look like when it's found?
Faith isn't just a part of my life — it's the foundation of it. In the uncertainty of what connection means for me, it shapes how I see, how I connect, and what I long for in another. I don't just want a relationship; I want a bond that is steady, unwavering, and anchored in something greater. I want to walk a path that aligns with my beliefs, with someone who understands why that matters. Someone who doesn't just accept my faith but shares in it, strengthens it, and walks beside me as we strive to be better together.
It isn't just about finding someone I enjoy being with, it's about something far deeper, something lasting. I don't want something fragile that bends to circumstance or convenience. I want something that endures, that grows and deepens with time. I don't just want someone to share a life with, I want someone to share a path with, a direction, a purpose, and a goal. Someone who sees faith isn't just something to be accommodated, but something that binds us together, something that strengthens and deepens every moment.
Fursuits are more than just fur. They're a chosen identity, a representation of the self that exists beyond just appearance — a way of saying, 'This is me, as I see me,' without needing to find the words. There's something powerful and beautiful about that — about being seen as more than just human. Seen as something intentional, something created, and something true to who you are inside. It's not just about the texture, fur, or form — although it is certainly nice — it's about presence, about how a silhouette, a tail, and the way the fur sits that all comes together to create a version of you that feels real in a way nothing else can.
And that's what I'm drawn to — not just the look and feel, the fabrics, or fur, but the meaning behind it. The way it turns an embrace into something more intimate, more tactile, and more immersive, something that makes the interaction feel like something more than just a hug. It's about the way it transforms a moment.
But more than anything, I want a bond that doesn't feel fragile. Something that doesn't waver, something that claims me just as much as I claim it. I don't want to lead. I don't want to guess. I want something sure, something that feels as certain to them as it does to me.
So if you understand this — if any of this resonates with something in you; if you're out there, don't try to be seen or hope to be noticed. Take the first step, reach out, say hi.
And maybe, just maybe, I can be the thing you have been searching for too.
From a fluffderg looking to be found,
- Kaioker